Arrested by Grace

Thursday evening, after work, I went to church, had a meeting over coffee and a dinner with a couple of friends. We finished around 1 in the morning and I still have to go to my sister’s house to help with my niece’s decoration for her birthday party. I came home to my sister’s house 2 in the morning. It is not an ordinary place and it is not accessible by buses and trains. I was about to take a taxi but a good friend of mine along with another good friend offered to take me home. It was indeed a very blessed and favored day/week for me because of the people God had placed in my life and of His overflowing strength He had provided to sustain all my activities for the whole week or past days. If I would enumerate what happened lately,…. I don’t want to enumerate actually.. LOL ^_^

I would tell myself (or pray) that these activities are not for me alone, Father, but these are for Your Glory and to fulfill Your calling in my life. I am really grateful for the overflowing strength and wisdom You had showered me…  These strength and wisdom are not for me to boast about but for me to share with other people. God has given us gifts not ours to possess or hold unto but for us to be shared and/or given to someone else.

When I got home 2 in the morning, normally what we would do is to fix ourselves (change clothes, brush teeth, fix the bed) and sleep, some would just sleep right away. I knew I was soooo tired but I fixed myself and went to have my worship and quiet time in the balcony.

I was asking again.. God, when are you coming back. I was getting rid of all my thoughts, my emotions my will, and especially my fear and doubts…and just letting His Holy presence consume me. But I know it was not enough. “I want clearer visitations and clearer communication with You. Take me to heaven and show me what You want me to do and tell the people.”  I was desperate to hear God’s voice. I want an intimate relationship with Him. I want to laugh with Jesus Christ and experience His humor.

There were moments that I got lost and came back but I know I didn’t fell asleep. I opened my Bible and God lead me to Ezekiel. I read 2-3 chapters and I was amazed by His revelations. Ezekiel in his 30^th year saw visions of God. He was then eventually called to be a prophet. I then told Him, God why 30? I am asking You now. Why do I still have to wait for 4 years? Well, God has given me His answers even before. He would always go back to the word – Obedience. I have to be obedient to Him then He will then supply me with the gifts of His Holy Spirit – the supernatural kind of thing – healing and prophecy.

He also told me the word – Patience. He wants me to enjoy what I am doing and currently have right now. I didn’t know the explanation why but I feel that God wants me to enjoy what I have right now is because when the time comes that He would call me,  I would obey Him and leave everything behind.

I have this strong feeling that God didn’t save me just to save me for eternal life. He saved me for His purpose.. for a greater calling. My fall was arrested by His Grace. I know the year 2015 would be the year of grace, it is the time of my equipping (this is one of my prayers points from the latest prayer and fasting).

As I ended my quiet time that time, I went to rest my body and listened to worship songs as I fall asleep. It was 4 in the morning, if I can remember.

I really thankful to God for bringing weekends or the rest days from work because I am able to have extended time with Him. Now, when I would remember His word, 30 years old? Well, let’s see but this I know for sure – God will never fail me.

Let me end this post with the song… Arrested by Grace by WorshipMob

Stuck in the mire of a standard too high

Best efforts have left me weary and dry

From trying to trusting, the weight is released

The cross I am bearing You carried for me

Caught in the crossfire, confusion and doubt

Entrenched in this trial, too weak to dig out

Redemption came running, with righteous decree

"I finished theWORK, child, so fall into Me... fall into Me"

You call me worthy, shame flooded by Mercy's sea

Forever forgiven, a new life has risen in me

Righteous and holy, sin always and fully erased

Beloved, accepted, my fall was arrested by Grace

From trying to trusting, this weight is released

The cross I am bearing You carried for me

Redemption came running, with righteous decree

"I finished theWORK, Child, so fall into Me... fall into me"

Adopted by Perfection

You rejected my rejection

Made whole by resurrection...I'm Yours

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