The Blue Man

So I am back in writing again. I was not able to post for two months though I have a lot of thoughts to blog about which I had kept in Evernote. Tonight, I just want to write about my current feelings and thoughts and whatever the Holy Spirit would like me write about.

It’s 11 on a Saturday night now. I have work tomorrow and I wanted to rest so bad but I still had that eagerness to write. So I opened my laptop and I am writing again. I remember the time when I created this blog. It was mainly to write about my travels and food explorations but it turned out to be more of the inspirational side and sharing my walk with God.

Sometimes God would give me ideas to write about. The ideas are overflowing in my mind but never get the chance to post them. So what I do is just write it down on my mobile then blog about it when I have the chance or the time. But then, I don’t have much time. Okay, I do have time but it is not enough on all the things I want to do. They said prioritize…manage your time..but for me? I can’t comment on that. I am quite lost but not really. There is so much to do yet little time – I would always tell myself.

I had a very tough week/s lately. My workload increased to the extent that I get to missed emails for a week which I don’t normally do. I and my teammates were having a tough time at work that even extending after office hours would not let us finish everything. I remember staying alone at the office one night until 10:30 and I got so drained the other day. Imagine some of them are staying almost every night. I can still consider myself lucky. Lucky… because I’ve learned to let go and leave office earlier than them.

But let’s get to the point… I had a very tough week at work but it didn’t stop me to do my usual activities. Would you believe me that my time with God was longer than before? I was expecting that it will be lessened or no quiet time at all. I was amazed on the fire and the strength that God gave me.

It all started when I had that Tuesday sesh with a group of believers from another church. We also have a run for a cause on that day and run as part of my training for The North Face Night Rock Run which I had yesterday (May 1). I was not able to attend the run off course. But it was a very fruitful and amazing night for me. I won’t be able to tell everything what happened but my eagerness to get closer to God and experience His Presence has grown more than before.

I can’t go to bed now without soaking in God’s Presence. My curfew time for myself is 12 midnight. I would go to the balcony, put a mat and pillows and lie down. I normally start my soaking time with worship songs, then prayer, then feeling His presence or letting God’s presence manifests in me. If there’s no word from Him directly, I would open my Bible randomly, then I know those are His words for me which then I find very timely. If you check my Instagram posts, the Bible verses that I am posting were the verses He had given me on those days.

That’s why I normally sleep 2-3am with 5-6 hours of sleep only. I have been asking God to give me clear visions or clearer visitations. That He will speak to me directly and that He will take me somewhere and I won’t be having that fear in me again.

God then gave me the word “Obedience” if I want to fully receive His gifts – the gifts that I have been asking Him – gift of prophecy and gift of healing. He had given me a task before which I was not able to do. He showed me the opportunity, the very clear perfect timing but I let it pass. But God gave me another task on that day but it was for another person and He wowed me that night.

Sometimes in life, God will speak to you directly and you wouldn't even realize it. So don’t forget to pray for discernment as well.

God gave me a vision one time of a man wearing a blue shirt sweeping the floor, and he was deaf. I was like, God why are you showing me this. Then He said, this is what you have been asking me. Then the obedience word came again. That night (Sunday), I said, Lord, where am I going to find this man. Where am I going to find him? I had my core training that night, rode a train, went to a cafeteria but I didn’t find him.

The next day, I was staying late in the office, and the office boys and cleaners are not wearing blue. I was about to ask my colleague to speak to one of them in their language and ask if one of them was deaf but I was too shy to ask her of that. She might ask me why, and I have to explain to her the reason that God showed me this vision. She might go on shock and I don’t want it to happen. LOL. I am actually not yet prepared to be so bold with other people. Though one of God’s word for me is to never hold back. Okay, let’s go back to the story…

I left the office 10:30 and I told myself there’s no chance for me to find this man because I am not going anywhere this late in the evening.

On my way home, I went to the grocery store to buy some snacks for the next day’s breakfast. I bumped to a man on my way to the cashier. I was listening to my usual worship songs and didn’t pay much attention to him. I was paying at the counter when I realized that, that is the man from The vision. I was looking at Him and couldn’t believe myself that The vision was indeed true.  I was praying, God please speak to me now. Please give me a word if You want me to go to him and pray for him for healing. Then I paid for my bill and went home.

nini.ph